One of the hardest things I come across in life on a regular basis in making decisions. Not those “what do I order for dinner?” kind of decisions, but like big decisions. I made some pretty big ones in 2015, then 2016 it feels that every time a decision arose things got muddled. Now I’m sitting here again debating grad school or another teaching job abroad or more crm work. A big problem I’ve discovered is I have no idea what I want to do and that leads to me doing nothing at all then regretting it. If I would pick a thing then change my mind, at least I would have done something. Yet here I am lost at the fork in the road staring at the map with a bunch of information about what lies along each path from which to choose, but it’s just impossible to choose.
Fun fact, as part of my IEP in middle school decision making an entire semester. Back then I had the problem of saying “I don’t care” to everything in order to not sit there and not be able to decide, I’d lean on others to decide for me. Now I care too much ha!
The problem is I want to do all the things! and here I am doing none of the things! ah the frustrations.
Anyway, one of the things I wish I would have kept up with is blogging, so here I am trying (probably in vain) once again to get going. I have a lot of thoughts and have had so many over this past year, but I’ve missed the chance to write them out.
Here’s to 2017 being brighter than 2016. Be there for one another. I am going to try to work towards bettering myself, working toward a career, and adventuring a lot!